Draw hour!
For the next hour (or two) I will be drawing random junk on paper. If you want me to draw something in particular, just drop me a message and I’ll consider.
i'll be honest, go
Have you ever:
1) Self harmed?
2) Got into a real fight?
3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?
4) Tried to commit suicide?
5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt?
6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?
8) Accused someone of using you?
9) Shoplifted?
10) Gotten drunk/high?
11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?
12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
(Right now) Are you:
13) Suicidal?
14) Bored?
15) Avoiding someone?
16) Avoiding some task?
17) Depressed?
18) Crying?
19) Annoyed with a friend?
20) Worried and confused about something important to you?
Do you:
21) Get depressed easily?
22) Get jealous/envious easily?
23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things?
24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot?
25) Try hard in all your classes at school?
26) Go out drinking?
27) Smoke cigarettes?
28) Smoke weed?
29) Do any hard drugs?
30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why?
31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will?
32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?
33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain?
34) Believe people deserve second chances?
35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying)
36) Think things will get better?
37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?
38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest)
Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
39) Long hair OR short hair?
40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs?
41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest?
42) Shy OR open?
43) Eyes OR body?
44) Religious OR non-religious?
45) Caring OR non-restricting of you?
46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge?
47) Piercings OR no piercings?
48) Tattoos OR no tattoos?
49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?
50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with?
Would you:
51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk?
52) Smoke weed?
53) Smoke cigarettes?
54) Get even with someone who betrayed you?
55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?
56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you?
57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what?
58) Join a band as a part time activity?
59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse?
60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them?
61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like?
62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family?
63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online?
64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported?
65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people?
66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them?
67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems?
68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes?
69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you?
70) Sleep naked?
You can only choose one:
71) Black or Orange?
72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore?
73) Cellphone or Computer?
74) Chocolate milk OR Coke?
75) Tumblr OR Friends?
76) Apple OR PC?
77) TV Shows OR Movies?
78) Old bands OR new Bands?
79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock?
80) Reading OR Listening to music?
81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice.
82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically?
83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge?
84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice.
85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice.
86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary?
87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe?
88) Shoes OR Shirts?
89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence?
90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice.
Almost over:
91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest.
92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family?
93) Do you want to travel when you are older?
94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams?
95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions?
96) Rather be the opposite gender?
97) What will you name your son/daughter?
98) Do you get harassed more than most people do?
99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.
100) What makes you a bad person in your mind?
DO THIS, PLEASE. I'M CRAZY BORED!
Well..
Just beat Mass Effect 2.. since I don’t have 3… And guess what! SHEPHERD FUCKING DIED IN MY GAME. I don’t know how, but he did! I though he lived?! Du Faq? I mean, he’s in the next game! I don’t know what I did wrong, but he died! Help me?
Depression..
Well.. its been a long time since I’ve written a lengthly thing such as this. Today has possibly been the worst day of my life. First, I get to school, feeling pretty good about myself. Go through my shortened A block with a breeze. Then B block arrives, Music Theory. I usually love this class, but not today. Today was performance day for our self written pieces. I was fifth to go. When I stood I calmly said “I’m Steven Januska, and this is Cascade” and proceded to play my song. it was about 3.5 minutes long, all instrumental piano. After wards.. there was no applause, no “Good job Steven!”, no recognition at all. I knew they all heard me, they were all standing a few feet from me. All I got was, from the most stuck up, self centered, and uptight person in the room was “That was utter crap” From Mister Jamie Motherbaugh. I swear I wanted to stand up, and bah his skull in! I had worked three hard weeks on that piece and he calls it crap?! What gives him the right to criticize my work! He’s certainly not perfect! He like to think he is, but NO, if anyone, and I mean ANYONE, including the teacher, Mr Weis, objects to him he pitches a fit like a freaking two year old loosing his favorite toy. thats not even the worst part of the day. Then came C block, which wasn’t bad. Had PE, walked to a local park in town, no biggie. then came D block, Biology. I swear that teach is the most condescending human being on the planet. So A student in class didn’t have his work done. He asked why. The student answered “I couldn’t find it this morning.” He proceded, “Why?” Student, “Because I live with seven other brothers and have no power in my room, and they came in and made a mess, opening my bag. It must have fallen out” The teacher, being that jack ass he is, said “That’s just an excuse” The student argued in his own defense, and ended up getting two weeks detention. I swear I wanted to walk up to the teacher, turn him around, and smack him across the face. It was definitely clear that the student wasn’t lying.
After that my day was fine, hung out with some friends, went swimming. then cam my band concert. All went well until the time came to announce next years Drum Major. Now my best friend has been trying to get this position for a full two years now. There where four candidates, two freshman and two sophomores. My friend is a company command in ROTC and the captain of the drill team. When interviewed, they were all asked if they had any previous leadership experience. Three of the either answered “Not much,” or “None at all” My friend how ever came up with 13 examples of how’s he’s been a leader. Now, this idiot of a kid, the other sophomore, joined the running last second, for kicks, a joke. He won. The stupid kid who joined as a joke. I have never seen my friend so devastated. I swear, I just wanted to walk up to this kid and punch him square in the jaw, along with the former drum majors for picking him. This used to be a legitimate position of authority. Now, its just a stupid band popularity contest to see who knows the most people and can get the most votes, not who is actually qualified.
This has all contributed to my over all depression.. just great!
Olivia Penpraze.
19 years old.
Died from a Suicide attempt that left her brain dead. Her parents made the hardest decision of their lives by turning off her life support.
She had a Tumblr account with over 900 posts sharing her emotional turmoil, dealings with depression, loneliness & thoughts about her wanting to take her own life.
The only response she got, was insensitive assholes, like the majority of people on Tumblr, encouraging her to do it. She was bullied consistently.
Olivia attempted to kill herself every year in May 1st since 2008.In May 2012, her short life came to an end.
I know most people can’t tolerate posts like Olivia’s, whom find it attention seeking.
My point to you people is…EXACTLY!!
Of course it’s attention seeking what else it?! People share that part of themselves over the Internet because they obviously feel they can’t talk to anyone they know nor do they think anyone would care.
All I want is for people to cut out the bullying & talk to people like Olivia.
A conversation to someone in desperation could save their life.If people can’t say something nice, don’t say anything at all.
You never know…
What you say could be used to decide whether they live or die.Even if youre a b&w blog, reblog this.
